self-realization

I remember my first day at County Community.  I got out of my car and took a deep breath.  I looked at the school and remember feeling out of place, a little scared and uncomfortable.  I came around lunch time and the students were standing outside hanging around until the bell rang for the next period.  Honestly, I was REALLY scared.  I didn't know what to expect...whether these kids would even listen to be or even cooperate.  I walked right up to the office and signed in.  I asked where Theresa's room was and of course, it was right in the middle of were all the kids were standing.  I remember thinking to myself "wow, is there another way to her office."  I didnt want to walk down that way because I really didnt know what to expect.  For one pretty young and thought they would give me any respect.  Once I got to meet Theresa, I was very suprised to see her interacting with the kids.  After being there for the day I realized she had to be firm and straight forward with them or none of them would be in line.

After my first tutoring session, I felt really pleased.  I realized that the kids at county community really just need some motivation and someone to the extra help.  These kids have real potential, but aren't applying themselves in the right way.  I even felt bad for judging them and thinking they weren't going to pay attention or listen to me, but they all do.  And when you get them one-on-one, away from their friends, they express that they want to learn and that they are eager.  I think it is great that Dominican offers programs like these to help the kids at county because I know that with time and patience, most of these kids can succeed and go on and obtain a high school diploma.  They have real potential, we just have to believe in them in order for them to believe in themselves.  Because how can one believe in oneself if others are constantly doubt you?